Labo

Didn't We Almost Have It All?

Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

Didn't we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes life worth living
Didn't we almost have it all
The night we held on till the morning
You know you'll never love that way again
Didn't we almost have it all

The way you used to touch me felt so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line 
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

Didn't we have the best of times
When love was young and new? 
Couldn't we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
We'll never lose it again
Cause once you know what love is 
You never let it end

Coming Back

It has been a while since I last wrote in my blog.

Yes, I felt guilty. And I still do.

So here I am now...coming back.

I did something a couple of weeks ago that hurt the love of my life. And now, I am giving space for healing. I also am praying for it. Some of you may think that this will typically end with us splitting up.

NO.

I trust my Hon's word that we won't. Moreover, I feel it and know it in my heart.

I need to keep myself busy so as not to entertain any negative thoughts while we're both in the processing of healing - Hon, giving time for the heart to welcome it. Me, learning to forgive myself for inflicting pain.

Good thing there's more work to do in the office and overtime is offered after quite a while.

When I booted my computer this morning, I saw the that files I've already deleted were re-installed (for some weird reason). So I had to go through them again and chanced upon a document about relationships.

Here is a portion of that enlightening article that I would like to share:

After breaking someone's trust and confidence in you, it will take a lot of patience and determination for that special person to regain trust in you again. With perseverance and determination, it is possible to turn a person's disappointment in you around and make your relationship better than before.

This is especially hard because Hon is not here with me to actually see. :(

Nevertheless, I have faith that things will get better after a week of healing.


To the love of my life...

Hon, I love you. Always have, always will.

Tempus Fujit

I woke after almost an hour of interrupted sleep. I am alone. It struck me that another month had gone by and I've barely written in my blog. Tempus Fujit. Time flies. A simple truth. And time, if not managed well, can never be brought back. It will not wait for you. Nor will it stop just so you can catch up with it. Half of 2012 has passed. The other half is yet to unfold. What will come, none of us is certain. As for me, I will simply take one day at a time. I will bask in all the opportunities that each day will bring to me. I will strive to manage what I plan to accomplish and do it religiously until it becomes a positive habit. I also hope that in time, tables will turn.

My personal Our Father

My Father who is in heaven
Holy is Your name
Your kingdom come
Let Your will be done here on earth as it is in heaven.

I put my trust in You for my daily nourishment
Please forgive me from the sins that I committed
As I extend forgiveness to those who wronged me.

Please always lead me away from temptations
And deliver me from evil.
Amen.

Take Heed

I will not always be the one to understand. I need understanding too.

#540 Run Your Race - Joel Osteen

In life, people will try to pressure you to become what they want you to be. But don’t let the criticism or peer pressure of others keep you from becoming all that God has called you to be. You have to realize you don’t need their approval to please God. You simply need to run your race to the best of your abilities and let God bring you to the finish line. The goals He has placed in front of you are too important to let others lead you away from them. Don’t worry about what everybody thinks and stay true to what God has put in your heart.

Points to Ponder

Cute! Guide for a Happy Relationship

1. Never both be angry at the same time. 
2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.
3. If one of you has to win an argument, let it be your mate. 
4. If you have to criticize, do it lovingly. 
5. Never bring up mistakes of the past. 
6. Neglect the whole world rather than each other. 
7. Never go to sleep with an argument unsettled. 
8. At least once everyday, try to say one kind or complimentary thing to your life's partner.
9. When you have done something wrong, be ready to admit it and ask for forgiveness.
10. It takes two to make a quarrel, and the one in the wrong is the one who does the most talking.

Helpful Notes & Quotes

For my first June blog, I'd like to share some useful/truthful/relatable quotes that I've collected.

great love and great achievements involve great risk.  

when you lose, don't lose the lesson  

*Respect for Self
*Respect for Others
*Responsibility for all your actions

Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.  

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it

It's not about being what everyone wants you to be, it's about being yourself and finding someone who truly loves you for what you are. 

Sometimes being strong means not holding back the tears, but letting them fall.

Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

Good relationships don't just happen. They take time, patience and two people getting through all the hard times together. 

Someone who truly loves you will never let you go no matter how hard the situation is.

Moving on is not about never looking back. Its taking a glance at yesterday and noticing how much better the present is.

Most people cheat because they're paying more attention to what they're missing rather than what they have.

"Di naman mahalaga kung MALAYO kayo sa isa't-isa, ang IMPORTANTE nagmamahalan kayong dalawa." ;)

Loving someone is one thing.
Being loved by someone is another.
But to be loved by the person you love...well, that's just everything ü

Hope you like them :)

I am grateful for...

- every waking day...I get to say "I Love You!" to those who matter most in my life

- the Scriptures that I get to read daily...keeps me connected with Him

- the love of my family...always have, always will

- my H...my One True Great Love

- employment...for my professional development 

- financial blessings...it enables me to support

- food on the table...it sustains me

- clothes...keeps me protected

- the air I breathe...it keeps me alive

- true friends...they're siblings from God

- my faith...I know God will never leave me

- my God-given talents...I can share it with others

- good health...it keeps me going

- trials...it teaches me to be brave yet humble 

- the rain...it brings back childhood memories

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New Challenge

Faced with a new challenge, I resolve to strictly follow the necessary precautions in order not to attract attention while under the watchful eyes of those who are in a different playing field. We need to be positive that this preventive measure will have a positive effect and keep the spotlight at bay.

Opportunity

I was able to tell my team these three things: 1. I'm Sorry ☹ 2. Thank You ☺ and 3. I L♥ve Team Kat. The team building was a blast. Too bad half of the team cannot stay up late. Nonetheless, it was the beginning of a better relationship among us. As we always say..."Competitive eh!" (ala Kat)

10 Random Thoughts

1. You can't teach an old dog new tricks. Similarly, you can never change the bad habits of a grown up.

2. Is it just me or is the world getting meaner by the day?

3. Something I learned from the facilitator of one of the workshops at work that I started attending: it is Task Management over Time Management. You can never manage time. It will move forward and will not wait for you. So in order to become an effective leader, manage the tasks that you do.

4. A brother-from-another-mother will soon be leaving for Belgium to work. What's bad is I cannot attend his despedida tonight all because my dad is already there and I'd rather not be at the same party with him.

5. Stop obsessing about something that is not happening.

6. Another important point taken from the workshop: The basis of influence is your relationship with others.


7. I wish the days would fly by so that it's June 15 already.

8. Mama has always been my model of patience. I wish that it was an inheritable trait so I don't have to struggle in practicing it.

9. I am thankful to have found my One True Great Love. (Thank you Lord for making it happen!)

10. A fresh start is about to happen... ^^;

45 & 10

I have come to believe in this phrase whenever faced with trials: 

"This too shall pass."

I am now in a better disposition for we managed to surpass a very challenging 9th month, celebrated our 10th and today, our 45th week.

Thank you for holding on...

Observations

*Neophyte blogger's note: I guess this is how it is for new bloods like me here in the world of blog. Each entry is a baby step towards writing more elaborate thoughts.

I got my prayers answered when I started my day. Thank you Lord for the speedy response. >",<

I am learning more about content and appreciation.

More importantly, I have to create my own happiness and not depend on others for it.

Last once...the jeepney I rode going home smelled entirely like a septic tank. Ugh!

Limbo

Ending my day with this kind of feeling is unusual for me.

10 months and 1 day ago, the purpose of my life became clearer to me...until somewhere along the way, there came a disturbance.

With whatever emotions that take hold of me, I make sure to acknowledge it and follow my 24-hour rule.

Why 24 hours?

Because that is just enough time for me to celebrate, savor and enjoy the feeling-of-the-moment.

After that, it's back to reality.

Anything more than 24 hours will cause me to overlook the more important blessings that will have come.

I pray to wake up to a morning with a clearer sense of what matters.

Modifications

I'll keep this short and sweet.

I have been doing several adjustments to the settings of my blog page. Well, lots of it.

Turns out, it's not just about writing my thoughts. I also need to make sure it's reader-friendly.

Tough job. But all worth it. (^^)

This is it!

Finally, I have managed to make this project a reality. :)

So for my first entry, I would like to thank someone who served as an inspiration in realizing this long-time dream of starting my own blog - Mark Joe, the last innocent man.

Mark Joe, your Anonymous Fan has now mustered enough confidence to put my thoughts into writing... c",)