1998

I just finished watching the above-entitled movie. top-billed by Albert Martinez, Eric Quizon, and Lorna Tolentino. In so many ways, this movie opened my eyes and my young, curious, inquisitive and closeted mind to the world I was treading at the time. The plot centers around Ron and Nick, a gay couple, and Annie whom Ron got pregnant after a one-night stand encounter. Annie then proceeds to "terrorize" the couple's once quiet life by inserting herself not just in the relationship, but in their lives. The trio eventually develop love for each other, but not without the proverbial struggles. There are several lovely, somber moments as their affection builds and it just goes to show that love knows no gender. 

The movie was released on April 5, 1998. Yes, 1998! Back then, I was still in the journey of getting to know myself as a teenager slowly transitioning to adulthood. I was 16, fresh out of high school and (probably) awaiting my PUP entrance exam results when I watched this movie by my lonesome. I passed the PG-13 screening because, well, I was already past that age, though I was still surprised by some of the gestures like Albert kissing Eric and their intimate scene.

Back then and even now, having watched the movie, it still has the same feel-good effect because everything ended well for the three main characters. Too bad I cannot download it because the YouTube link is not recognized by the tool that I am using. Nevertheless, I am glad to have had the chance to watch this movie then and re-watch it now.

Truly, everybody is FREE TO LOVE. 💗

Nostalgic

Another Friday on leave. Still have that little pain on my right arm due to the vaccination last Tuesday. I generally don't like to be left alone with my thoughts because they can run amok and cause me anxiety. Like now. While praying the rosary, several thoughts came across my mind, distracting me, and made my heart race. 

Turning to YouTube, I looked up the Streetboys, a 90's all-male dance group who I have idolized growing up. I felt relieved watching their performances from way back, taking me to those years when I was just a teenager. Somehow, the anxiety was abated.

Socmed detox now comes to mind.

Hopeful

 

So part of the internal struggle I've had this year had to do with almost the whole family contracting Covid-19. Yes!  It's what I called a 'dark period' in our lives, what with the worries and stress it brought us because Papa showed severe symptoms manifested by his low oxygen saturation levels and me developing symptoms, too.

But God is good, for He not only gave us our bigger family who assisted us with our needs, He also made Papa's body respond to the DIY home care that we crafted for him. And so after our respective isolation periods, we were given clearances and moved forward in life, more careful than before.

Then one by one, with the help of God-sent friends, my family got inoculated with vaccines. Ours happened yesterday, July 20th. I am thankful that it came earlier than the allocation I've been waiting for at work; that it happened with enough time for us to rest before reporting to work last night.

And for as long as the government and private sector continue their efforts of administering the vaccines, the future of Filipinos looks bright.

Monday Musings

The start of another work week. Had a good night's sleep since we succumbed to it earlier than usual yesterday because we were all tired from the unplanned road trip to Tanay Rizal. What was initially a date with my youngest brother and sister-in-law instantly turned to a family affair. Avionn, our trusty, new baby, brought us to Cafe Katerina, a restaurant located along Mayagay, Tanay, Rizal, offering indoor and al-fresco dining to its customers.

Today, I woke up to a text message from Papa inviting us to have lunch with them. 🧡

After our lunch date of home-cooked food, I decided to continue my work on my Vision Board (VB). I recall from my previous entry that I'd post the finished product, but I thought this project will be a continuous one, with goals marked 'Completed' as I move along, so here's the current look of it:

My main/current goal: Be Debt-Free.

Admittedly, having access (once again) to the plastic that is the credit card, I felt the same euphoria and excitement that comes along with having the borrowed spending capability that in the last 3 years, I've made some purchases that otherwise, I would have not had I thought about the long term instead of instant gratification. Presently, I'm paying off previous purchases and am in the process of reviewing my finances to make better future plans.

I'm trying to be a bit wiser this time and I aim to stick to that plan.

Anyhow, I'm still planning to add some more to my VB, so as I post more, I'd also share more about it.

Good morning!

Another weekend is upon me and I am still nowhere near my goal of cleaning my space at the family compound. I've made little progress last Monday, but that resulted to me being lethargic from that night's shift until Thursday's. 

I'm supposed to have Bunso's and Bunsita's help today however, they just had their anti-Covid-19 vaccine yesterday so I cannot ask them yet. I might (No! I must) do something there like clean a bit more, no matter how small.

Yesterday, I went to Ever Gotesco Commonwealth and got me the materials for my Vision Board. Being an visual person, I wanted a space where I can write my goals on paper, post them and see to their fruition. I want to experience the 'high' of it once more. Then again, I must work on putting the board all together first since I also bought baubles to decorate it.

(Lookie! I'm adding a photo! Oh what fun!🤣)

I just realized that we're half past another month. And though at times, anxiety still creeps from around some of my life's corners because I constantly have this feeling that I haven't accomplished much yet this year, I just remind myself that I need to take it one day at a time.

PS. I'll post the finished product (hopefully) in the next entry. 😘

💖Kulot

Unidentified Feeling (Free-flowing entry)

July 15, 2021 Thursday

That's what I'd like to call what I have been feeling these days. No, it's not because I'm sick. I just happen to feel tired, not wanting to do anything, to the point that I think I am procrastinating at life.

There are days when I feel lazy. There are days when I just think a lot, but inasmuch as I would like to write down my thoughts like I used to when I was younger, I end up not doing it. 

I sometimes wonder what has happened to me (or what did I allow myself to happen) since this pandemic hit. I mean, I see a lot of well-adjusted people who, after about a few months, have 'settled' and 'harmonized' their lives with the 'new normal'. Me? I see myself nowhere near some of them. Then again, there's no point in comparing how I pace my life with others simply because each race is different.

And so I just find solace that I was able to open this page today after an eternity and once again put my thoughts into words.

I remember wanting to be better at chronicling so I revived this blog even though no one would probably take interest in this aside from me, but I fell for the 'ningas kugon' affliction - magaling sa umpisa.

Anyhow, to each his own, right? One baby step at a time. I am not yet good at thinking of what topic to write about, so I'll just let each entry be free-flowing.

I'm quite proud that I've written this much in a single entry. 😊