Wednesday, July 3, 2024
More than two years from my last entry huh? That long? Geez! And I am here again, finally recalled how to access this page. The last two years, I can say that I just went through the motions of life. Gave the 'bare minimum'. Just existed.
Ugh 2022.
If it weren't for the birth of Bebe Gic and Taba's miraculous recovery, I truly, truly wish that it had just not happened. I still think of it as a nightmarish year of my life - battling depression, Taba getting terribly sick, my nearly fatal heart attack, and the worst - losing Bunsita. 💔😭
I was never the same after October 18 that year. I knew now how it felt to have a part of you DIE when we lost her. Fuck! The aftermath? Grief attacks. When it happens, I feel like drowning. That, no tears are enough to cry out the pain that resurfaces. It's like a big gash that's been stitched and then the stitches are pulled forcefully.
May be going back to this page will help with my grief journey.
May be I'll find solace in creating entries that bare myself.
I don't know.
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